Struggling

It has been many years left..wohooo..ten years?? really?? How I miss this blog badly. I just open and read it as a visitor. Wanna touch and type something but it is impossible because I am not an admin anymore. Guess what? I dont have a passoword how to get into it. However, finally, I got some ideas. When I start opening this blog which is automatically connected to my gmail. Google asking me to sign it with my gmail, and they recommend the account fitriani.agustin@gmail which is definitely the access to become admin in this blog. I was surviving to memorize the password (again..) and type the new one. Voalaaa... Now, this blog and I doing a nice reunion after almost ten years?? Life so far are good, too good and with connection to my rosemary corner again.. its wonderful..yeaa..wonderful life.. Welcome back my rosemary. I will let you know what happened to my life recently...

Routine..

My husband often said that everything is around and my mind had stored it. So, I just have to set

my mind and send to the brain to do it. It is like everyone else that I don’t need to be smart and work harder as already in schedule as normal.

For study and even in everyday life, I often worried too much of such kind thing that I face. I always expect something beyond my ability. As a result, I ended up with unsatisfaction feeling when it comes to the low expectation result.

Today, I learnt something that I will follow the routine and strick to the schedule. I tries not to do anything ramdomly.
God please help me.

Love Letter..

I know this is my exception request to my husband. I asked him to write love letter, write it in papers and send it to Enschede by post. It seems weird for digital era. Letter is gone replaced by e-mail, facebook, chatting, Skype.

He just laughed and beg me to change my request. I refused. I want him to write with his own style. Life is not just a routine. It is not his style. seems he never said it romantic way how much he love me.. :)

Anyhow. He deals with this agreement and I am waiting for his letter coming soon..

Thanks Honey.. :)

They drive me CRAZY..

Play hard ..study hard..
Breath..breath..focus..focus..
Allez is Goed
Say Cheers..
Meneer..

Amsterdam n Toilets..

My husband and I went to Amsterdam for the second time. We were searching souvenirs Holland-features like key rings, magnet, sticker, hat etc. For those of thing, to be honest, I am not really interested in for looking for the souvenir and so my husband. We just bought to make our relatives, colleagues and friends happy. Well, I hope they are happy with the small gift will spread to them soon .



It was tiring since we walked for about 2 km return to double. So totally, we had walked for about 4 km in windy day. Oh Amsterdam, What can I say about the city, it just like crowded with people, tram, canal and bikes. Well, part of city is interesting, lots of shops and malls, our eyes just ignore to pretending that we are just addicted to shopping. What a city.
We passed by the Rijkmuseum which is under renovation for unlimited time. Took a picture in front of it, it just like ritual, nothing much to tell about, and finally we had chance to capture inverse ( why I said inverse? See the picture, I Amsterdam .. . SO far, my husband is happy since the last visit 3 years ago, he couldn’t find the I Amsterdam standing text.


To be surprising of this city is there is no free-in charge toilet in public places. Whaaaaat?? Yeaa.. for me who addicted to go to the toilet (due to my over-drink during cold weather), it is terrible. I have to pay at least half euro to have my right to go to the toilet instead get the free service of using the toilet. Ok, fair enough finally, because I found that different paid toilet has different service. I found that there are two kind of unique for give the customer service of using the toilet. Either they give us the small candy, nice interior of the toilet.
The nice thing when I enter the toilet, the door seems like transparent. I was a bit scary since it is “private” moment I guess, and everybody have chance to look of my naked ? Oh no, I keep scary with what happened next.
Later, I just realize that there is the notice that if we lock the door properly, the transparent door will automatically replaced by the normal one, so I can happily urinate inside hehe..


Another time I found the toilet is very nice and wide. While in the toilet I have a chance to listen to the music with a very good sound system, and inside there are cupboard full of dolls and crystals. More thing is the toilet papers is just colorful, blue, purple, pink, yellow, green are just there, you just grab any color you want. Was it nice?? Well, to be there, I have to pay for about 2 euro ! it is enough to buy best king deal contain cheese burger, cola, and French fries! That is the most toilet fee ever !!

After One Year...

It has been one year since I left Perth for good. I was relieving at that time since I submitted my first draft thesis. I went home alone taking two flight transit in Denpasar Bali. I took Garuda Indonesia flight and had to change my flight number to Jakarta. I left around 6 am Perth time, Brother Syah family took me up to the airport. Really, they are good family, and they have already known what was going on between me and him. Ok, it is not time to reveal my past time. Let it gone by the wind even sometimes, I always remember what was going on me in Perth for two years.

And now, guess what, I am sitting here back to my office. After one year, I am still struggling with my thesis correction. I was so awful and last time I received one e-mail from my supervisor that I have to address some points which will be negotiated to the research committee that I mind with my first examiner said. Yea, I did it and sent it last Monday.

Now, I am waiting for any confirmation. I hope the good news will come over.

Actually, I had some targets had to be done for one year. Let me lists what I have done and what I haven’t been done.

Well, seems that my live start constantly. I always busy with vicious cycle on my work which I shouldn’t do it. Ok, I apologize myself.

I submitted three papers to both international and national conferences of my thesis. Until now, all are under confirmation. If so, I sent my abstract to the Geological Society of Australia (GSA) which I become a student member. If it is approved then I have to present my work in winter conference in Canberra next July. I also sent my abstract to national conference of Indonesian Association of Geologist in Sengigi Lombok Island on October this year. Well, the last reason why I register as a presenter is because I want to visit its beautiful island. Heard that they have white-sandy beaches which are very awesome I thought.

The last silly thing when I send 3 of scientific paper to the UNESCO summer internship for writing in Italy. I got misunderstanding issues regarding my registration. The committee required the social science background (e.g communication study background) for attending its course. The main goal is how to present research work for non-scientific audience on writing. I though that it is scientific course writing. Thus, the committee said I am not eligible for awarded its course. Indeed, I disagreed with the committee’s decision. I argued that for me whom have scientific background, it is good if I got some training in communication issues regarding present scientific issues to non-scientific audience.
Is it easier to train scientists to write information wrapped in non-scientific language? I think so, but again, the committee did not reply my email.

Well, at least I had try something. For me, failed means never try. I tried and I failed, and that is I called postponed success.

Have a nice day everyone 
God bless you

Give my money back..i m so bad today..

Hey, just let you know that I am bored with this thesis correction. Somehow, I want to change my career. Change from geoscientist into geo-journalist, Lol, sounds interesting, right?

This bloody thesis makes me upset. The examiner comments are too rude and even he said that my reference isn’t be accepted by any universities whole Australia. Well, what else, he asked to me revise?? I don’t know, while I m reading the comments, something want to vomit, things that the is yaks animals I don’t want to take care of it anymore…

Ok, even, I try to write it down instead of addressing the comments. That is what my supervisor recommend to me through his email two days ago. I just read it cause my additional problem suddenly came..Ouh GOD !! please help me out this problems..

I addressed some but the file is in the office, I hope by fixing this im2 modem, I can work at home and no need to get into the internet connection at office. However, my prediction is wrong !! the customer staff isn’t satisfy either and guess ! I went home with a big trouble in my head. I just walk along Naripan Street, even at that time I was under recovery after severe cough last night with some air pollution adding my problems. I don’t want to take angkot ( a public transport, green big van contains 9 people inside).

I visited the shoes shop, I hope I can get a cute shoes, mainly my old boot need to retired soon due to much water during rainy season. I found some, but unfortunately there is no size fit to my foot. Then, I went to the bakery Tabitha bakery shop. It is not big but I want to try whole Bakery in Bandung, what taste does it like. So, I decide to buy cheese brownies and cheese bread. These two are enough and I will give to my friend at boarding house. Holy, she is very nice person, she take care of me while I was sick. Yeaa..i want to give this cake for her and friends.

So, plan to do some work revision is out of schedule. I still upset with the internet connection. It means that I will loose of my 100,000 rupiahs just to sign on im2. Oh No.!! I don’t want give it freely to the company ! instead of doing it, I want my money back within the week end by 9 march. So, I asked my sister to come again to the customer office tomorrow morning earlier.

And what I do now? I don’t want to touch any revision works. I want to write which makes me happy. What is that? Writing some novel? Or doing some journalism things.Oh, well, do I have to take any formal studies relate to journalism or I just keep trying?Give me your opinion guys…

To be honest, I have two-true story novels that I project on. Fist is my dormitory experiences and the second is my adventurous travel in Jogjakarta. The one I start to write when I study in Perth, I got many ideas and I promise myself to write it down once I came here back in bandung. The second one is just start in outline. It is a bit weird I thought. But, both are still good.

Someday, I dreamed I went travel everywhere in many places; busy, scenic areas, metropolis, quite, dry or wherever. I drop there for work or just interact with local people learning their culture, language and custom and do some social work as a geosciences teacher or delegate the UN organization? ( well, and just remember I need someone to support me). It means that to what I do, I always accompanied by my soulmate. What a beautiful life ! God, please, that is my praying for today…